Sunday, January 30, 2005
feeling down tis few days..dunno y..mayb too tired le ba..tml going to sch again! hate the 2pid sch..miss the old days..miss the sec sch life..dunno y, since the 1st day of ite i dun feel lik studying..tis yr is totally different from last last..nth to push me 4ward to study! unlik last yr, i loved going to sch...think tat's e onli yr i enjoyed going to sch ba..me n ting mayb wil go back on CNY eve to visit the trs n c hw he's doing...hope he's still alive..ha..nv c him for 3mths plus le ba..kinda miss him..haha...but dun wu hui..i no motive de..even hav he also won't shang dang de..ha..realise tat i've changed alot during tis few mths in fact tis 1yr plus..lik the way i behave last yr..but hate the way i'm behaving nw! seems tat nth's bothering me anymore,behaving happily in sch..but inside my heart, i couldn't take it anymore! gonna suffer from a breakdown soon..dunno who to go to...in fact no 1....feel lik going to place where no 1 knows me n be myself! the real me! the pro is, i dun even noe which's the real me!!!!
posted by regina koh @ 9:52 PM
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
oh my! hav been facing sarcastic remarks since ytd i think..up to dem wat they wanna gossip abt us..we didn't do anything wrong to dem..the feeling of being accuse was reali bad but wat can i do? i can't control wat ppl's thinking right? wat i can do is to sit back n c wat they can do to me! sarcastic remarks? go ahead...
anyway, sch reali sux lik hell! feeling reali stressful since the 1st day of sch..when am i able to get use of the environment? the teachers there alot sux lor.. show no concern to students at all! must get all 'A's in order to get into higher nitec..difficult sia..papa wans me to wk harder n go to higher nitec den to poly..is not tat i dun wanna to study hard its juz tat the stuffs i'm studying nw r infamilier to me..!! n i hate ite's life! it sux! no 1 wld understand the sickening feelin i'm having nw! cos no 1 understands me! no 1 is there for me! no 1 is there for me to tok to! no 1 is there for me to confide to!
posted by regina koh @ 5:41 PM
Monday, January 24, 2005
2day sch was sux! i was being accused of selfish! oh pls! when did i???!!! pls dun always push the faults to others! u're not onli the 1 hu couldn't understand the lessons! mi too! n didn't even ask me n yet said tat i'm too selfish to teach! hu do u think u're???!!! u're not the onli 1 feeling stress! alot of ppl also... doesn't understand lessons doesn't mean tat i'm there for u to vent ur anger on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my mum gave birth to me not for u to pick on n scold!!!!! hw would u feel if i treat u in the same way???!!!
posted by regina koh @ 5:53 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
quite busy since sch reopen..finally same clz wif the old frens..but i still dislike ite..dunno y..cldn't get use of the environment i think..was forcing myself to get use to it for the pass wk..but still cant..the trs there are totally different from sec sch..they aren't as caring as sec sch trs..hav to b independent in ite..no 1 is there for us anymore..miss the old days in sec sch..lotsa memorable feelings was left in the sec sch..hw i wish i cld turn the time back..mayb 1 yr back..2 yrs back..or in fact 4 yrs back...so tat i cld change everything all over again..hmm..i'm thinking too much...i shd be grateful nw..shdn't i? anyway, reali feel lik quitting sch..quitting the 2pid ite course..i dun think i cld take it any longer..wat shd i do?shd i quit or not? the subs r reali confusing..nv seen dem b4..they're so infamilier to me! i'm feel so stressful!!! who shall i turn to n who shall i tok to???!!!
posted by regina koh @ 9:03 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
sch reopened ytd..i'm in e different clz wif ting they all..all of us are seperated..hate it! i detest the sch! detest the ppl hu seperated us! detest the environment!!! detest everything there!!! felt so lost, lonely n helpless ytd...n 2day also...tml we'll b changing clzes to our own sub..we choosed the same sub but e sub onli hav 1 clz...i'm afriad i cant get in cos my maths results was bad while theirs r 2 or 3..mine onli 4...i dun wanna to b alone in another clz again...yml will noe which actual clz we going to..pray hard 4 me n the others..!!
posted by regina koh @ 4:42 PM